Ram Das once said if you want to prove/test if your enlightened, spend a week with your family. Robert Louis Stevenson wrote:“The world is so full of a number of things, I ’m sure we should all be as happy as kings.” Yet dealing with those we love/loved are our most difficult tasks or endeavors. That Brad keeps going back, trying to maintain contact is to his credit, just wish for him, and others, it didn’t usually end in tears. His sorrow and hurt rings clear through your writing and touches those who know the like.